Have you ever had two significant events happen at once and both being complete opposites.  Like the birth and at the the same time the death of a dear one?  How does one process both the joy of new life yet lament over bidding farewell to your dear one?  The other day was something like that.  I woke up earlier than usual to finish the last details before our trip to go and celebrate the wedding of a dear friend.   Not long after, I found out an uncle had passed away.   And then couple hours later found out of the passing away of a friend’s mother in law.   We often…

It is interesting to me to see how God leads or lets us come to the end of ourselves. What is interesting to me is that He knows who needs a push or who needs to be allowed to dig themselves into a hole. Sooner or later we all have to come to the end of self. By that I mean, a complete surrender to God. If we are His, we will come to that point. For it is when we surrender we realize life without Him is empty and that in Him we are truly alive. Oddly enough, sometimes we don’t realize we are not really living. When I…

Lately I have been reminiscing about what God did in me a couple of years ago.  It is no coincidence that today before starting on this post, I felt the urge to read a devotional I had put down for a few months.  And low and behold, the scripture that was next, was one of the words God gave me back then.  When I first moved to Rancho 3M, I kind of thought that was it.  But lately I have been feeling that there is something more, something new God is about to do; not just in my life, but I am praying in this ministry, region, and the nations. …

I am aware of the title being quite odd, may even make you uncomfortable. Hopefully I won’t drag on, but I do want to share the types of death I have experienced. One type of death, is dying to our own desires, dreams, and wills. This kind of death, seems to be ongoing sometimes. I remember some 10 years ago, a friend expressed how she felt she was continually dying to something. I understood what she meant. I had experienced it too. Not too long before that, I had gone to a birthday party of a friend’s daughter. Somehow as I sat there, the desire to be a mom surfaced.…

Last night as I was trying to sleep little E (a baby girl I’m caring for), I put some music on YouTube and a song that I had sung almost daily for weeks, came on and reminded of that time. It was just right after a heartbreak and various disappointments, which were the catalyst for my re-evaluation of my life. My car had been in a crash so I was having to use public transportation to go to work. Just to paint the picture, my drive took me about 25 minutes. So you can just imagine how long the commute turned once I had to use public transportation. Not to…